I love you more than anything on this planet

i've loved....and love..... you .......like I've loved no other woman ....I know that....I know you will find a man who looks at you the way I did.....you deserve that.....unfortunately it just wont be me.... and I so wanted it to be.......and it wont feel like it did when I looked at you......so why after your "please dont contact me ...etc" email.....which I thought was kinda cruel...am I writing??
cause there;s certain truths we should know.
(1)....i do love you more than anything on this planet.
(2) I have an alcohol problem. Its one of the things my dad and I talked about before he died. I resisted it. However, since early may I;ve been going to AA. Two or three times a week,


Hopefully this will persuade you to leave me the hell alone! You've blown any chance we had at even being friendly when we see each other on the street.

"Selling my soul..."

I would sell my soul for another chance with you. I've had time to think about things. About my behavior. About us. A chance to be on my own. To mourn my dad.I used to think I had all the answers. that I was ohhh so smart. I know I'm not now. I know that you were the most important thing in my life. And I blew it.Like I said I would give anything. My life without you in it sucks. I'd marry you in a minute. You have to lose someone to realize some things. I have. And I have.

Does this sound familiar? I don't play like this but I have asked you to stop, one too many times at this point.

I asked you...

I repeatedly asked you not to blog about me. You seem to ignore me and think it will endear you to me. First you write how amazing I am & how you miss me...should have married me...will never love anyone like me...etc Then after the Grey Goose it turns into nasty Brian and your rude comments. My personal favorite was how Meg dismantled our relationship...and you acted...how pathetic even for you! You are responsible for that travesty. Now if you continue to blog about me I will cut and paste your hundred plus emails you sent to me over the months....all over the place. We both know you don't want that. Do not look at this as a threat, but rather as my final attempt to "persuade" you not to write about me. Not to be mean, but do you think anyone really cares? Get a new hobby before you destroy any credibility you have left.